139 again.

i hate this. hate it hate it hate it. 

i started this at 133, plateaued at 127, 124, 120, 117, and then after that i didn’t weigh myself but i fasted so much and could fit my fingers around my thighs and now here i am at fucking one hundred and thirty nine pounds. 

fuck renfrew, fuck my parents, my therapists, my meds, and food. fuck temptation and fuck energy. 

i pretty much want to die right now



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“The hardest thing about depression is that it is addictive. It begins to feel uncomfortable not to be depressed. You feel guilty for feeling happy.”